A prevented happiness

Have you ever said to yourself that you shouldn't be this happy? Or in other words, you've prevent happiness came to your life, and perhaps denying the current happy moment?

I don't know, perhaps out there are people who just wish to see other live unhappy life. But for you to prevent your own happiness it would such a waste. There must be a big reason or a great barrier that prevent to flow of happiness, which makes acceptance is nearly a miracle. Perhaps its a guilt, or another simple nightmare.

But disturbing the flow of genuine or rather natural happiness in your life would be no different than doing it to other. A prevented happiness gives nothing but simple empty self satisfaction to anybody who made it happen.