Saturday, 18 December 2010

Facing The Life

We may talk so much about this life, otherwise we can always write about it endlessly. But the question is, how if life itself come directly to us, face to face, how will we face it?

If we see it nice, charming, we may give our sincerly smile and hug it with a lot of love. But when its seemed to be ugly, sorrowful, or painful, we tend to avoid it, and we can find our self running away from life - so people may try to end their meeting with life, ending one own's life.

Now, the question is still the same, how we are facing this life?

Wednesday, 1 December 2010

Sticky Feeling

Sometimes we feel something that just stick around our sense, and we just don't know what it is. It comes as anoying sensation, when it goes, we may feel glad - temporarely. But soon as it is returning, we don't know how it could give us a stressful moment.

So what is this feeling? Or the question should be, is this kind of feeling really exist? Or this feeling is something that sensed by our nature, or just something that came from our fear?

Tuesday, 16 November 2010

The way to Intelligence

Sorrow is the result of a shock, it is the temporary shaking up of a mind that has settled down, that has accepted the routine of life. Something happens - a death, the loss of a job, the questioning of a cherished belief - and the mind is disturbed. But what does a disturbed mind do? It finds a way to be undisturbed again; it takes refuge in another belief, in a more secure job, in a new relationship. Again the wave of life comes along and shatters its safeguards, but the mind soon finds still further defence; and so it goes on. This is not the way of intelligence, is it?

K on Commentaries On Living, Series 3, Chapter 36

Sunday, 14 November 2010

Is Understanding The End?

We always though that if understang something, then that would be enough. But is it true that understanding would be the end?

Understanding fills the gap between our mind and reality. But it still - in fact - we are seperated with our reality. And while separation still exist, our movement still get a chance to turn into chaos.

There is something, that dismise the gap, but I am afraid, it isn't something that we can understand, or explained by merely words. If it can be explained, then understanding would be enough to connect us with the reality.

I don't what you call, a deep understanding? A complete aweress? The supreme consciousness? Or perhaps - God itself.

Love is living

Love is something that really lives, no matter how you feel it, look at it, it grows and lives with your every single of your breath.

But, if its root were cut, than surely - it will die. And just like everything else above this earth, you just can't revive the death.

And like other things too, love can grow again from the scrath if there is exist the seed of love. What you need is to watch it grows, so you won't miss anything that can cut its root ever again.

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Saturday, 13 November 2010

Religion is not belief

Religion, surely, is the uncovering of reality. Religion is not belief. Religion is not the search for truth. The search for truth is merely the fulfilment of belief. Religion is the understanding of the thinker; for what the thinker is, that he creates. Without understanding the process of the thinker and the thought, merely to be caught in a dogma is surely not the uncovering of the beauty of life, of existence, of truth.

The Collected Works, Vol VI 3rd Public Talk, 1949 Rajahmundry, India by Jiddu Krishnamurti.

Mind Boundaries

One may have been asked one self, whether he can become creative, which is a genuine creativity that borns within. I really don't know, but to has that kind of creativity, mind be set up free of boundaries.

How can mind understand such creativity if its bounded it self into some limitation like idea or point of view. A mind need to become a wholeness, so it can see its' own boundaries, that set it self free by naturally.

And then, withing such as complete freedom, maybe mind can understand what is this creativity.

Saturday, 6 November 2010

Process of Art

"You're confusing product with process. Most people, when they criticize, whether they like it or hate it, they're talking about product. That's not art, that's the result of art. Art, to whatever degree we can get a handle on (I'm not sure that we really can) is a process. It begins in the heart and the mind with the eyes and hands."

- Jeff Melvoin

Thursday, 4 November 2010

Don't get bore

Have you ever feel so bored that even for killing time you no longer has passion? Well, you really did get bore then.

There were a nice (I think ist funny) quote from Chuck Palahniuk, it said "All God does is watch us and kill us when we get boring. We must never, ever boring."

Well, then now, is up to you.

Sunday, 31 October 2010

Hidden Stroms

Everybody ever found a strom even the phsycological one in their life. But there is a kind of hidden strom, it still dangerous, but we just don't see it.

There is two reason we don't see it. First, we are unable to see it, secondly, we are denying from seeing it.

So which one is the true us within that strom range?

Sunday, 24 October 2010

Rising hatred

One as human might has some flaws deep within oneself. As an example is a character of being easly irritated.

You may say that you love someone with whole your heart. But after seing your lover with someone else - a stranger, you may start feel irritated. And before you know it, there is a hatred rising quetly.

When there is hatred, there is no longer love within. You have to let go this hatred, so love can grow freely.

Saturday, 23 October 2010

Feeling secure

One always searching and maintaining a security feeling within oneself. One sees security as main part of his daily needs. Have a good job, having a nice family, everything just perfect.

But what is this feeling truely? Why we feel secure, why we feel unsecure? What we are able to do to maintain this need of security?

All those question should be answered before we knock in the front door of this very life.

Wednesday, 20 October 2010

Heart above clouds

How can you see the bottom of the sea while the heart are above the clouds. Even the secret of forest and desert are far away from your wildest imagination.

Let go the clouds... And see for yourself.

Monday, 18 October 2010


Do you know that tears isn't an unlimited resources. Yes it helps us to maintain a good condition for our eyes, and somehow it can perfectly help us to express certain emotion.

But somehow, when we produce them to much, our eyes become dry. So, avoiding any certain emotional explotion that can dried the tears is essential for our health.

But how come? How we avoid it?

Some are just too fragile, sadness and sorrow can easily make them tearing apart. So what solution do we have for this sadness?

Or do we really need to seek for solution?

Sunday, 17 October 2010

Get away pain

"Pain (any pain--emotional, physical, mental) has a message. The information it has about our life can be remarkably specific, but it usually falls into one of two categories: "We would be more alive if we did more of this," and, "Life would be more lovely if we did less of that." Once we get the pain's message, and follow its advice, the pain goes away."

Peter McWilliams

To joy

One of the joys we have in being human is in exercising our freedom to choose and to take each case as it comes to us. We are not robots who are forced into behaviors by their programming. We see things; we think about things; and we choose our course of action or beliefs appropriately. And as long as that remains true of us, we will live every day of our lives on one slippery slope or another. There is no reason to fear this.

Real Live Preacher

Friday, 15 October 2010


Is not about that you can feel what other feel, cause what we have felt for others could be just ilution. Our heart maybe just covering our own weakness of unable to see what others really are.

So what is this understanding?

Wednesday, 13 October 2010


What are tears about in emotional coridor? Sadness, hapiness? I don't know, maybe because my tears already dried up, so even when sadness or hapiness came, there were no tears I could feel from my eyes.

Sorry, I don't know the song

This evening there is a debate on local television about a test for PNS selection. One of the question on test asked about the song that was wrote by Indonesian President today - Susilo Bambang Yudhoyono. Well, it is said as a general knowledge test, but I am not sure myself.

I don't know the song for sure, nor have any interest to know about it. I prefer singing oldies Keroncong melodies just like Melati di Tapal Batas or Jembatan Merah etc for killing some free times.

So I must be failed the test if I was on it. Well, just sorry Mr. President, I just don't know the song. I prefer to honest to myself.

Sunday, 10 October 2010

Trust isn't always about identity

People used to trust others only if they already know each other. But if they just met each other for the first time, can one really say, "okay I trust you."

Is trust always about identity? Or can we find something that can make humanity as equal being, so trust no longer just an issue within identity.

Friday, 1 October 2010

Word beyond boundaries

A word would be meaningless when it is trapped within boundaries. We said "love" but we catch a utterly nill voice and nill feel on it.

We give to much boundaries for a singel word, since we tied our word with so many hopes and expectations. Then we feel so empty when the word returns without touching the boundary that we expected.

Thats just about we human, we afraid to lost many things if we let go the boundaries.

Thursday, 30 September 2010

Life will continue

One ever asked, "why you look depressed?". People would answered if they has a kind of problem, just as how most of us face everyday.

But yes, why one must get depressed by it? It is a natural process that just must happening?

But one thing for sure is that life will continue, with or without those depression state. Now, its our choice perhaps, will we let it goes - the depression state - or will we hold it for rest of the time.

Tuesday, 28 September 2010

The south winds

I wish to find a spirit within the wind, blowing my mind to infinity. Split away all differential in this crowded thought, a space beyond the reach of time.

Monday, 27 September 2010

Grace and Goodness

Human can not continue exist in war and hatred all over the world. This part of living wasn’t the truth meaning of life within harmony with each others.

"Let grace and goodness be the principal loadstone of thy affections. For love which hath ends, will have an end; whereas that which is founded on true virtue, will always continue."

That what was John Dryden ever speak of. I am just getting tired of hearing news today, everywhere were about war and hatred, this is not how the world should be I think.

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Tuesday, 31 August 2010

Gone with the wind

Have you ever felt just like you really wanted to disappear by gone with the wind? Why?

Our connection with life in this world somehow give us a circumstence where we just wish to cut it all without any single track left behind.

Life is so unique that every single of us ever share this common feeling. Even so, not many of us ever successed to find the answer 'why'. Or maybe there was no answer at all.

Virtue of life just didn't blown away with the wind, even so how it was happened, then still, wind is the part of our life, and we can not just disappear like that.

Have you stop loving this very life so you decide to gone with the wind? Then, I need to speak nothing more.

Monday, 30 August 2010

Knowing the world, is it useful?

One asked one self whether has some knowledges about the world would be useful for one self. In some field of life, like getting job, helping each other, having a trip, one tough that knowledges about the world would be useful.

But in many more aspect, maybe it is not that essential. Even you cultivated a lot of knowledges till this very moment, but if you can not understand your own self, then the knowledge seems as empty shell of the past.

We'll met a lot of circumstance that our limited knowledges won't be able to resolve it. Than what shall we do? Is there something else so essential in this life except than just knowledge?

Friday, 20 August 2010


In my childhood, villagers love to talk about spooky things, like ghost, demon, and any mystical beings that said to be existed around our village.

Well, those stories can really scared me to death. I don't know, maybe I am a real coward from the begining. Even never met a single ghost in my whole life - except myself - but hearing that kind story would rise a spooky athmosphere around my thought.

But it was nice, since even I scare till today, when I was alone in the midnight, looking a the night sky with its stars and moon would made me in peace. Just take a deep breath, than everything would be just alright.

Thursday, 19 August 2010

One Man Band

Pixar’s One Band Man was a quite interesting short animation – well, I would say I love almost all their short animation.

This movie let us understand that an unhealthy rivalry would cost a great lost for both sides. But if one can’t learn from this simple example – well, say it is hopeless then.

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Wednesday, 18 August 2010

The Pool of Stillness

When the mind is crossing the cruelest storm field, it becomes a field of storm itself, and can bring about chaos even worst than the initial situation.

So you with that potential in front of you, would you still crossing the storm? While there is no guarante if the pool of stillness are beyond those cruel winds.

Tuesday, 17 August 2010


I don’t know, or may be I am not so sure. But lately I find myself sometimes is wondering for something. Well, since I am not sure, its more likely a de’ javu around my consciousness. But poor me, my environment quite full of voice pollution right now, I can concentrate at this matter.

Maybe next time, but still, I am wondering – what I was wonder? Its so strange…

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Wednesday, 11 August 2010

By Listening

Somehow we can’t pay attention to something fully, but the very source of the reasoning may comes from our self as well. Here is a short dialogue which revealed our own problem.

Q: Why is it so difficult to empty one's mind?

Krishnamurti : Now just listen to that question. Why is it so difficult to empty the mind? Listen to this. The speaker stated: meditation is the emptying of the mind of the activity of the self. You heard it. You have drawn a conclusion from it, saying, "How am I to do it?" - and in the very doing of it, it has become very difficult. So you ask the question, "Why is it so difficult to empty the mind?" That is, you haven't listened to the statement at all. You have drawn a conclusion from that statement saying, "I'd like to do that, but by Jove, how difficult it is" - you have understood? If you listen to it and not draw an abstraction from it, that is, "I must empty the mind", then "How am I to do it and how difficult it is", then you have an immense problem, you can't empty the mind, do what you will you can't empty it, because the desire to empty it is part of the activity of the self. But if you listen to it, listen to the statement, knowing you can't do a thing about it, just listen to it - look sirs, I listen to that aeroplane, listen to it. Listen to it without any resistance; listen to it saying, "I am trying to understand what he is talking about, how can I listen to that aeroplane, I want to listen to him" - you follow? Whereas if you just listen to that aeroplane without any resistance, then what takes place? You are just listening. There is no difficulty. But whereas if you listen to the statement that meditation is that, then you go into all kinds of tantrums, see all the difficulties, say, how can you do this living in this beastly world and so on and so on. Whereas if you listened totally and completely then that very act of listening has produced in the mind a movement which is not the activity of the self. And that movement operates in daily life without any difficulty.

- Saanen 7th Public Talk 29th July 1973 Collected Works

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Monday, 9 August 2010

Let it goes

Human feeling flows like stream of a river. Somewhere it appears so calm, and somewhere shows its other side.

We may not aware our own attachment to those feeling which bring about many things. Happiness, sadness, sorrow, anger and everything.

There is maybe a moment, a point which exist by its own nature. Where we'll let it goes.

Saturday, 31 July 2010


Unreachable in my perception isn’t the same as unknowable. Robin Green and Mitchell Burgess ever said, “You've got your phenomenon on one hand. Concrete and knowable. On the other hand you've got the incomprehensible. You call it God, but to me, God or no, it remains just that, the unknowable.”

Maybe your mind would determine it as unknowable, but surely your heart has slight understanding that isn’t unreachable. Well, human sure is a strange creature, isn’t it?

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Saturday, 17 July 2010


Somehow people have hard time to see whether they live their life honestly. We cover our self behind many masks of importance. We deny our true self, we deny our heart just to see what we desire to see.

Do we really know, the pain that we our self bring about on our very existence because the mask that we never realize that we already wear it right now?


The mask itself isn’t the cause of our suffering, but our ignorant of the truth that we covered this long. Will this life just ended like this?
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Wednesday, 14 July 2010


"Self-importance is our greatest enemy. Think about it - what weakens us is feeling offended by the deeds and misdeeds of our fellowmen. Our self-importance requires that we spend most of our lives offended by someone."

Carlos Castaneda

Tuesday, 13 July 2010


"Forgiveness is the healing of wounds caused by another. You choose to let go of a past wrong and no longer be hurt by it. Forgiveness is a strong move to make, like turning your shoulders sideways to walk quickly on a crowded sidewalk. It's your move."

Daily Prayer

Friday, 25 June 2010

When Got Over Stress

Yes, I do really a simple person who caught in stress very easy. And my face became funny or somehow just seems like that. Ha ha…, I can’t even ignore the unknown screaming inside my head.

But, just by getting some relax moment, listening classical music, I found its quite easy to overcome my stress. At least that I did thought.

See… I got stressed very easily Angry smile

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Saturday, 5 June 2010

Agony everywhere

Yes, agony is everywhere, and somehow human stuck on it, dunno if they (really) love it or somehow just can’t leave it alone…

Agony now, agony hereafter,
the wrong-doer suffers agony in both worlds.
Agonized now by the knowledge that one has done wrong,
one suffers more agony, gone to a state of woe.

Rejoicing now, rejoicing hereafter,
the doer of wholesome actions rejoices in both worlds.
Rejoicing now in the knowledge that one has acted rightly,
one rejoices more, gone to a state of bliss.

Dhammapada 1.17, 1.18

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Running Away...

There were always an easy exit for every problems, and people who love it called it as "running away". But do this really works out? Hmm..., that would be a question isn't it?

I love to joke with some people who were in kind of serious problems. Trust me, they were always complaining many (and even more) things, their jobs, their studies, their home, their friends, their family, their (said as beloved) partner, even the inosence cat. Can you believe that? Or do you sometimes sound like one?

The similar thing about the complain is, the more you felt have had something in your grasp, the more severe the complain, the more severe you stress and problems become.

And then, you felt like you wish everything just diappear from your side. You don't know what to do anymore. Suddenly you realise, that everything won't just disappear that simple. But you..., you can dissapper from everything, or you thought so.

This door of chance, we call it running away.... Ah, sound intresting don't you? Would you take it?

I don't know where this door will lead somebody, they maybe luck avoiding the core of problems, but others maybe not as lucky as those gentlement.

Understand yourself, take a deep breath, then you shall know clearly whether you wish to use that door - the easy exit.

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Thursday, 3 June 2010

The Faces Those I Never Knew

I heard the rain start falling down tonight, is sounds so romantic. The air becomes light, and my breath ever lighter. I never thought I still traps myself on my own imagination, even the voice calls me so clearly.

And I say to myself, enough is enough. They are just faces those I never knew, maybe I did stop to understand them as unexplained part of my wild passion. Someone who didn't even look to his own heart, I won't call it a coward, but he just can't trust enough his own mind - his own soul.

Sunday, 30 May 2010

It is love?

It is love? People usualy didn't bother them self with this kind of question. But I do love bother myself for it. If love some something that you can just say it, then it can be bought, since lots of voice can be bought on a political stage as an example. So love no longer priceless, isn't it?

I believe for the one who sought for an answer, what is this love, has seen so many things those foretold as love by many people before him. But in then end, all of them just speak of love, not the very love itself.

But when one comes to give all his heart for "what is this love", maybe he would find it, but he must not force a finding to be love at all.

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Wednesday, 26 May 2010

Animated Series “Little Krishna” – The Little Avatar

When I was in Bali, lovely accompanying my nephews watching television at the night, and we found an interesting animated show on TPI – called “Little Krishna – Darling of Vrindavan”. Well, it was the second animated series that TPI brought to public after Upin and Ipin’s series. We were so enthusiast watched them over and over.

If you ever read the Mahabharata comic by RA Kosasih, and watching this animated serial, it must be a good complement for the avatar’s childhood stories. As one of ten avatar, Krishna (or perhaps some would say Lord Krishna) were thought to be lived around 6000 B.C., when the Hastipur still exist as the greatest kingdom in the middle earth.

Tuesday, 18 May 2010

Udana 3.22

Today I recieved the Udana 3.22, and I found it about the same thing that the common would say, and the end of time...

That bhikkhu who has crossed the mire,
Crushed the thorn of sensual desire,
And reached the destruction of delusion
Is not perturbed by pleasures and pains.

Udāna 3.22

Monday, 17 May 2010

You aren't Wrong

There was a time when a pupil shought his master angrily, it seemed that the student just experienced a very bad oment.

Student: Master you did say that one must not think twice when a chance come in front of our eyes, didn't you?

Master: Yes, indeed I said it clearly to you.

Student: So whats wrong with me, so I get this stupid luck when I do what you've told me?t

Master: No my child, you aren't wrong at all. But I didn't mention not to think at all as well, didn't I?

Ah..., then the pupil leave his master when a red face...

Thursday, 13 May 2010

Because I see it so close

Somehow I can see that death comes so close, even as it was my very breath itself. I may found it interesting since it reveals no fear within me. Somehow I fell a comfort when it comes near me, maybe I never be used with any pain form in this world, but the end of all those sorrow seems so full of charms.

But no, not yet, just give me one more single breath - so I can place my hand for others before my way to leave.

Friday, 7 May 2010

The Fate of Unchained Hearts

We might wish to understand each other, we might pray that we can stay together forever more. But there is a point when we might stop and thinking back, what are all those thing that we wished for?

Yes, maybe I can say clearly that I can't live without you. Because that feeling were the most idea that I have and I fell all the time. And I thanks you that because of you I can see the part of myself for so real. This feeling maybe all I have. Since there were no place I can chain it to your heart, then just let it be like this, cause this is me.

The fate of unchained hearts with love beyond pain.

Wednesday, 5 May 2010

Hear My Voices

I am asking nothing nor demanding anything of your possesions. I come here with simpel wish and please don't you twist it.
Listen to me, hear my voices, is all what I need from you. Hear not what your mind whispers to you all this time. But simply listen to me. Since I can't speak it twice, hear my voices once, you'll find my true self inside you naked with only truth within.

Hear my voices. Then our song shall find its harmony.

Monday, 3 May 2010

Fly of The Broken Wings

Yes I know the wind isn't so friendly these days even it has been my very friend since long time ago. Maybe for a good reason wind were dancing crazily these days, for not letting my fly with a pair of broken wings.

No one would do such crazy thing of flying with these wings but me. I nearly took a stand where I fear nothing, my mind likely become dull enough to understand a term of fear itself. Even death is a obvious door in my next step, it may not stop me to take my flight.

Yes, I'll fly of the broken wings.

Saturday, 1 May 2010

Sadness End

Everyone ever come to this so called fell blue. Yes, when we can't find a better solution for a problems, somehow we gave up with so much regrets.

But no, not me. I don't have any regrets. Even this end was obviously a sadness end, but it was not chose to be like that.

Every breath I have a moment ago was to observe one single think. A freedom even on a sadness corner.

Sunday, 18 April 2010

Jasmine Strands

I arrived at the castle
Where the gates are filled with a string of jasmine
I hope to meet her
She who steals my heart
It was this desire is so simple
So I do not see the complexity
I forgot to see what she wishes from me

Like a strand of jasmine
I forgot how it strung as entranced by the beauty and fragrance

Sunday, 4 April 2010

Wavering Heart

I came to this feeling where my heart has been so fragile…

Anything can hurt my heart easily just as this morning…

But I know this pain is something that I must endure…

My ship weren’t the strongest one when a big wave struck decisively

My wavering heart always be here in uncertainty…

Maybe someday it would understand fully, why a heart wavering…

Thursday, 1 April 2010

Happy April Fools Day

No matter what the name you chose for the road, it all not the correct answer(s), since its no road at all.
But since you got yourself here, I shouldn’t make you down my friends…
Believe me, even on this April Fools Day (April Mop), you’re not the only one who fool enough to get here. But here is where me met.
Thanks for accompanying me on blogsphere for all this time. I have nothing but a simple friendship for all of you – my foolish friends
But please, don’t make me fool you again next year won’t you? Because I can’t stop laughing at all …
See you next year, and happy April Fools Day! 

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Saturday, 13 March 2010

Dragonfly of Evening

I watch the evening air when the dragonflies dance together, they seem fill so much joy of that afternoon. Yet the sky doesn’t fall red, and the little air spirits was taken them self into a sacred harmony of my peaceful evening.

Yes…, this is a wonderful world.

Saturday, 13 February 2010

Nothing Much

Have you thinking anything hard lately? Maybe not, but still I don’t know, do I? Everyone has something in their mind if they were thinking about something.

Maybe I was someone that not have any interest to share anything in my mind – especially those which then become burdens for me. If I share something, it may not bring about burden to any person. That was and still what I thought.

I can’t reveal my fully self since this mask created under my hidden consciousness. I believe, if there is a way to reveal what is hidden deep within my darkness side, that must be someone trustworthy enough to carry the way of the sword to slash without hesitation into every pieces of secrets that lay beneath my lost sanctuary.

Then it maybe nothing much, but that would be a song of freedom.

Friday, 15 January 2010

Violet Evening


Welcome to “Our Short Pilgrims”, this blog offering nothing much but a  simple words and just words…

Let words speaks silently in this crowed life, so the wind from the vast sky could meet our heart here in the beloved earth.